IN LOVING MEMORY OF 小垃圾

This whole month had been a reminder, not a gentle one, of a violent truth of how fragile life is.

life is very fragile.

it sat there, stinking of urine, shit and garbage.
it sat there in that stinky cardboard box, gazing at the sky, observing the clouds.
it gazes dreamily, as if looking at a breathtaking scenery.

Meow~ i approached, and it turned it's head towards me.
Eow~ it meowed incompletely.
2 weeks, my guess is its 2 weeks old.
14days on earth and never full.
it felt unlike a kitten, it's not only scorny, the fur, is hard from rain and all its waste and mud.
it crawled hungrily onto me and gulped down a whole serving of milk.
i tried to clean it up a little but to no avail, its really filthy.
this littlepiece of garbage slept on my palm.
i wrapped it with a clean piece of cloth and left for school.

we returned and brought it up to andy's and gave it 4rounds of good scrub.
the waste water that flowed down from its tiny body is brown.
the little piece of garbage has a lump on its back and a little bald patch on its forehead.
we blew it dry with the hair dryer.
it got too tired for milk.
it slept in the bed i made for it in my shoe.
then it slept in the bed we made it in a new cardboard box.
we woke it up to feed it milk but it was too tired for any.
it slept.

next day morning the boys tried to feed it but to no avail.
it was getting real weak.
i rushed it down to the vet.
contacted and agreed to met its adopting family there at the vet.
it woke up.
growled and looked at me.
hugged my finger to sleep while we were sitting at the bus stop waiting for the vet to opet in 15minutes.
it opened its eyes. and gazed at me. the way it gazed at the sky.
no. not right. paws felt icy cold.
eyes still open.
no.not right. not responding.
carried it up. totally no control of limbs.
no. not right. no more pants.
shook it hard and slapped it hard.
no. not right. no reaction. eyes still open, as if still gazing at me.
no. not right.
dead.

i stroked it on its forehead the way i always do to close the eyes of cats.
the eyes wouldn't close, but a drop of tear flowed out and emptied it's teary eyes.

life
is
fragile
.



[took on the corridor by the steps where I found it. after gulping down the milk.]
As we stand by the side and witness how fragile life is, we tell ourselves that we gotta be strong.
This is so ironic as we ourselves, are feeding on this fragile piece of life given to us as well.
I guess we just have to shake off the mindset that we are destined to be the luckier ones blessed with food, shelter and warmth and humbly bow to the fragility of life. I guess only the real sense of probability of death and sufferings can lead a man to reckon that all power beseeched upon mankind exists momentarily and the real joy of life come from cherishing.

This little piece of garbage leeched onto every bit of life beseeched upon it's scorny body and gazed the sky with awe. There is pleasure and magic at every corner of earth and it's up to us to gaze at it with the eyes of little garbage or to mourn over our withering petals.

North Pole ice cap melting faster than ever

AFP - Thursday, August 28

WASHINGTON (AFP) - - The Arctic ice cap keeps melting under the effects of global warming and in August saw its second largest summer shrinkage since satellite observations began 30 years ago, US scientists said.

Measurements on August 26 showed an ice cap of 5.26 million square kilometers (2.03 million square miles), just below the 5.32 million square kilometers (2.05 million square miles) observed on 21 September 2005, making it the second biggest summer Arctic ice-cap melt in history, said the National Snow and Ice Data Center (NSIDC).

Since the start of August, the Boulder, Colorado-based center said, the Arctic polar cap shrank by 2.06 million square kilometers (0.8 million square miles).

The melting is so fast and extensive it could shrink the ice cap to below the 4.25 million square kilometers (1.64 million square miles) reached in the summer of 2007, the smallest it has ever been observed by satellites, the center said.

Since the end of the Arctic summer and the start of the freezing autumn is several weeks away, it said, the ice cap could dwindle even more than it did in 2007.

At the end of northern hemisphere summer 2007, the Arctic ice cap was 40 percent smaller than the average 7.23 million square kilometers (2.8 million square miles) observed in 1979-2000, the NSIDC said.

The North Pole melting season begins in mid-June. The ice cap shrinks to its smallest area by mid-September and grows the most in winter by mid-March.

"The bottom line, however, is that the strong negative trend in summertime ice extent characterizing the past decade continues," the Center said in a report.

The North Pole itself could even become free of ice by September for the first time in modern history, setting a new milestone in the effects of global warming on the Arctic ice shelf, NSIDC glaciologist Mark Serreze told AFP in late June.

"We could have no ice at the North Pole at the end of this summer. And the reason here is that the North Pole area right now is covered with very thin ice, and this ice we call 'first-year ice,' the ice that tends to melt out in the summer," he explained.

Serrreze said the possibility the ice cap could vanish stood at 50 percent.

If it does happen in September, he added, "it's possible that ships could sail from Alaska right to the North Pole".

The Arctic has been free of ice in the geologic history of the Earth, but never in modern history, Serreze said.

"Clearly, if you look over what we have seen in the past three years and where we were headed, we are in ... this long-term decline and we may have no ice at all in the Arctic Ocean in summer by 2030 or so," he added.

Not long ago, he said, the summer disappearance of the Arctic ice was predicted to happen between 2050 and 2100.

The NSIDC said the receding North Pole ice sheet was chiefly caused by the melting of ice in the Chukchi Sea, off the Alaskan coast, and the East Siberian Seas, off the coast of eastern Russia.

The Chukchi ice sheet is one of the natural habitats of the polar bear, where it hunts for seals, and its disappearance is a direct threat to the animal's survival.

The vanishing summer polar ice cap, however, also opens up the fabled Northwest Passage that winds through the northern Canadian islands and links the Atlantic and Pacific oceans.

Shipping routes using the Northwest Passage would spare very long detours through the Panama Canal and around South America's Cape Horn.

An ice-free North Pole would also expose untold wealth of natural resources, including oil and natural gas, locked up beneath the Arctic Ocean waters, which Canada and Russia are already eagerly preparing to exploit.

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He saw the tornado of death swirling near him.
He grins as he thought of the golden bars it'll bring.



man. greed. hopeless.

CLOUD.TASTING

Dark clouds gathered and wind started howling.
The child saw flashes of lightning before she heard thunder roaring like hungry lions.
She grabbed on tightly to her colourful lollipop and bent her head.
The rain splattered into the void deck and slided down her thick black banks.
She frowned and took a step inwards.

Her brother, whom she adored, was a year older than her and standing beside her when the first drop of rain came falling from somewhere far far away in the sky.
Somewhere too far up for the child's tiny eyes to track.
He ran into the rain and opened his mouth wide.

He then ran back to his sister, and he was then drenched from head to toe.

He secretively bent towards her, cupped his mouth by her right ear and whispered,
"I know how the clouds taste like. "
He leaned back and with the help of the lightning, the child managed to make out the satisfied grin on her brother's face.
She lifted her head upright and smiled.

Her brother took her hand and pulled her along into the rain.



Out in the rain,
the children held onto each others' hand tightly.






Opening her little mouth, the child curiously savoured the clouds.

BANGKOK 2008

The first thing I fell in love with in BANGKOK was the cables.

Haphazard .

Random.

Wild like vines.


ELECTRIC.VINES




Second thing I fell in love with was the colourful cars.
Thais, like malaysians, are not afraid of colours.

Colours make the city looks like a playhouse.
Pink Cabs, Rainbow toottoots, Red and Green buses. Toy cars.


CITY.OF.TOY.CARS




THIRD thing i like about thailand.
SHOPPING

WHOLESALE.CITY





FOURTH thing i like about thailand.
We dress up in our wholesale buys every evening GAOGAO.


ME.MAT

MORE PHOTOS TO BE UP....



BANGKOK 2008 IN MY HOLGA IS A CUTE LITTLE WORLD.

ENTWINED IN ELECTRIC VINES WHICH POWERS UP THE CITY AND GETS THE ROADS OF COLOURFUL TOY CARS RUNNING,
PEOPLE SMILE A LOT BECAUSE THEY ARE HAPPY.
AND THEY ARE HAPPY BECAUSE THEY ARE ALWAYS IN PRETTY DRESSES AND FUNKY SHADES.

SALON @ 90 DEGREES ANTICLOCKWISED

这是我的心肝宝贝。

Sitting in Film Editing Lab waiting for the transfer to be done.

I got 6min.

This holiday,

I bought a black ipod.

I made a lot of friends through work.

I got FCP short cuts at my finger tips.

The school became my home.

I got my hair red-ed.

I went drinking a lot,  for the merry.

I decided to quit drinking ( caps at 2 shots ).

I adopted Salon.

I strained my relationship with my Family because of Salon.

My family came to accept her and love her and welcome her to our family.

Got to know A Pakistan and a irish man.

Feel that the world is small.

Feel that the death is near.

Feel that the salty breeze is nice.

Feel like I'm dreaming.

Transfer done. back to work.