Talking to the beauties nowadays.
about views on relationship~ take one relationship.
I said i think that they are too idealistic, expecting too much from the partner.

then i come to realise, i hardly expect from him.
I had come to this stage, whereby i no longer dare to expect in him.
I find this less hurting, so that i can be more contented, more easily contented.
But is this right?
hao duo luo....


HE doesn't really give.
and when i tell him these problems, he takes a defensive stand. he thinks i am getting too emotional.
all these about more respect, more concern, more think-for-me. more sacrifice-for me.

I dunno~ think i am getting too emotional too~ menses you see.
or am i not?
am i changing myself to make myself feel happy in watever shit get in?
do i deserve more?
or is this truly enough?
Everytime i run from these questions~ i continue smiling~
continue my life as his girlfriend.

People around me are worried that i may get bullied by him, i dunno why, they shdn noe much, how did they come to this conclusion?
I do not grumble to othes abotu him. i do not tell them i feel mistreated or watsoever~
I always seem so happily in love.
Sometimes, i feel that i am so pathetic, i blind myself~ dream out my own excuses and all~ and tell myself~ ok, now justified!~ so..... SMILE!~

Issit the hormones taking over now?

I hope so.

i am too lazy to change~ i am not afraid, this i noe.

but i am pathetic, this i noe......