Is it the stress? is it pms? is it a combi? is it my expectations? is it depression?

Feeling like shit every now and then~ and it is so frequent that it is so difficult to feel happy for long.

this is so....~ disguisting~


I feel so disguisted.

God, if you are truly up there~ please help me, cus i already ran out of ways to help myself.how did this happen? this there something wrong with me? it is as if i am under some curse~ it is as if i am possessed.

At nights i can't sleep~ it is really bad~ i wander in my living room~ walk all around my home~ so blank~ i feel so hollow and unreal no matter where i am~ i am not consious. I don't feel awake yet i can't sleep~ i feel haunted~ sometimes the all time favourite statement haunts me down again~ in a blink~ i am going to be on my death bed~ time passes sooooo fast. and things got really disguisting~ isn't anyone going to try to save me? god? are you sending some guys out there to help me? to remove this curse? if you are, please hurry~ i don't think i can wait.

daytime and all~ when i am busy~ i am perfectly fine~


this is sickening~ but i haf faith~ that it will go over~ if you are there~ please watch over me~