It was 5am and I couldn't sleep. Yes, mom and jac must be thinking? oh man!~ maria the pig couldn't sleep?! that's real serious. haha, but yea~ impossibles happens.

Actually I had been having hard nights quite often ever since months ago i guess?
i am afraid I might had lost this simplicity in my body and mental system, i feel quite complicated. I don't like this.

But anyway~ i was in zr's room~ rolling and rolling~I fell asleep at 2 plus 3 i guess~ when we decided to take a 5mins nap before going to pantry to cook mee and harshbrowns for supper. Super unhealthy food at super unhealthy timing, i can picture me and him in a batman style sportscar speeding, munching on harshbrowns and slurping mee, then we pass by a sign, ***9821 days to death, maximum speed 1harshbrown per day and we were obviously overspeeding. anyway~ yes~ we fell asleep instead~ a great safe by our sleep bugs. woke up at 5 and couldn't fall asleep again, rolled and changed at least hmmm~ 10 positions, and i think i woke him up~ finally decided to get up~ take up the guitar, camera and my new MUJI organiser(a happy recent buy!) and my super long pencil case filler with pans and markers and pencils, and his super duper water bottle~ and i headed up to the balcony. There's something with this balcony i like a lot~ the scenary? the .... location? like a forgotten corner~ nice to get lost in for minutes. or hours.

Wrote a song~ simple but i really liked the feeling of writing songs out of room~ out of bed~ out of comfort zone~ exciting experience~ it's titled " thinking way too much". It's going into my 4d project. altering of planz~ dunno hwo to upload personal sound track so i can only present the lyrics. teach me how if you know please~ anyway~ here it is~

THINKING WAY TOO MUCH

why does the moon looks so violently oh sliced apart tonight?
why is the star so stunningly oh lilted up despite
the other part of the sky is,...
pitch dark~

* Doesn't it matter?
or am I thinking way too much?
shouldn't it matter?
or am I thinking way too much?
x2

why is the sky turning blue and the clouds getting pink again,
so beautiful again?
oh is the sun coming up? oh no please push it down for me.
remember the last evening you set the sky so beautiful~
you set me wanting more oh and
before I know it~
it's pitch dark~

*Doesn't it matters?
or am I thinking way too much?
shouldn't it matter?
or am i thinking way too much?
x2

Why are the birds laughing?
they think I'm thinking way too much.
shouldn't it matter?
or am i thinking way too much?



Is it that the setting is just so nicely set for me to pour out so conveniently or is it that the evertything in nature has something so in common that we can relate to each other so while when we spend some time to dig deeper? maybe it's a bit of both. or maybe, it's just that i was thinking way too much~ haha~

2more songs coming up~ HAUNTED, and one other~

Songs are still the best~ better than blogging~ better than talking~ it's a lot like time with yourself. in a special dimension~where you pour everything so intangible out into tunes, words, feelings~ magical feeling~

Desperately needs a haircut. so thick sial!~ nel:" yar la~ mine also sial~ you see~ so long cannot dun style sial~ otherwise go void deck chill and relac one korner mina walk past malu sial~" hahaha~ can just SO imagine~

mom~ hao la hao la~ teach you lah~ start after exams? too stress wait you lian float also cannot float~ haha~ DA JIA JIAYOU!!!!!!