I think I'll be fine. It's just another impossible guy met. It's not like I haven't been through this shit before. The irony part is, this one was the one who cleanly pulled me out of that shit. It was when I got together with zr then ron's words start to totally not matter and he doesn't mean anything special to me at all, and only then, he could did me no harm. Oh, so will a 2nd zr appear and pull me out of this shit and eventually end me in another pile? Oh man, it better not happen,that will be too much a misfortunate love life. I din't really needed any guy special. I really din't. So why do they have to come and become special?

I love him. I think he loves me. He just din't give much shit sometimes or most of the times. Oh maybe he din't really loved me. Or maybe it is really just his character. Maybe I made a mistake,he din't love me deeply the way I did, maybe.
The sad part is that I still some what feel that we will be together~like it shouldn't end. But I am SO DAMN sure that he will not throw away his bad temper to get me back. He assured me that by his attitude and by my knowlege of him. Maybe he is a jerk. Wait. No. He is not a jerk. He just has a problem with handling situations and he is ungentlemanly and insensative and self-centred. He has lots of good too. He is very direct and frank and humorous and like a child.

Or maybe I was too easy. Whatever. Don't feel like thinking too much. Since distance made him listen, it might be as simple as this. We were too close? Whatever.




really.








whatever
WHATEVER

WHATEVER.