back from camp~ super shag~ made some friends~ attitude and selfish campers this time. super discouraging~ some cute ppl~
airport called to ask me to go again~ with photocopy of bankbook and cert and ic. is this is yes? i think so =)
think i dehydrating~ah~ met an instructor which looked damn likethe sloth in ICE AGE!!!!~ also quite joker~ he's my rumour partner in camp despite the fact that zr is actually working there too~ so weird~ and despite the fact that i never even tok to him before~(when the rumour started) . that's the power of sec2gals~ reminds me of how i used to be~ haha~ i ran into the toilet to see myself in christabell's shades~ so i was shouting " excuse me! urgent!!!" then the gals ask~ instructor!~ why sial? then i say~ i wanna see myself in this shades~ nice nto nice not?!~ then they say nice!~ (ah~ i like trueful gals~ blinks!~)
"why sial? must be boyfriend coming right?!"
"yar!~ must be! ehhh~ luff and giggle~"(other gals)
" ah! must be francis!!!~ AH!!! INSTRUCTOR YOU LIKE FRANCIS!!!"

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!! was i such a joker? since i feel some resemblance?! HAHAHA~ DAMN NO LINK~ and the way they say it like the fact is so ME~ haha funny karma~ which mom shd noes it best~ doesnt affect me negatively at all~ haha~ such teasings doesnt work on me much~ due to the large spare allowance of fave skin~

THEN they went to tell francis~ and everytime they see me they sure will run here and shout together~ FRANCIS!!! haha!~ then i will smile and wave to them~ haha~ cheap thrill sial~

yea~ really reminds me of myself at that age~ ah~ really feel age working on me~ as a person~
they are teenagers with a lot of negative and positive attitude but the selfish part somehow turns me off quite badly~ hmm....~

needa sleep~ nitex!~

Just realised i din tok about the prev prev post~
it was the hormones~ haha~

I was doubting how much he cares me and blablabla~
and being childish~ he din clear up the mess in my head~ he just messed it up like a child throwing tantrum~ and i felt like hell~

but i hanged on and then~ this happened...


After going for an interview with him and sio~ we went around to some guitar shops for shopping~ hehe~ that's sio's hobby~
came to this guitar shop which sells 2nd hand guitar~ i saw this WWOW~ design guitar!~
SUPER VINTAGE~ got statue of liberty at the front~ OMG!~ I MUST HAVE IT!!!!~ he came by and ask me what i looking at~ so i showed him and said!~ OMG!~ THIS IS .....the ONE!~ i must have it!!!~
it was 150bucks~
"yar, style leh~ you want buy ah?"
me, nod FURIOUSLY
"but i no money~" says me
" i got, cash~ from tution~"
tried the guitar~ sounds good~ asked the uncle if can cut down the price~

" cannot lah~ aiyah~ best price i can give you is 120. "
he went back to try the guitar plucked in to amplifier~
ask me to try~ i like~ i must have it~ i MUST!!!~
" but not worth la~ if 100 then we buy ok?"
i agree~i went to pester the uncle~
failed~
afternmuch time~ and consideration~ we decided that it is too xiong to buy it~ then we have to eat wind and drink rain for that month le~
" suan le lah~ after get job then buy la~ it wun be bought by others de la. 120 is too steep la~ cus got defects~ you still need to fix and reformat the guitar leh~ need extra money for that~"
he left~
i din follow~ my legs din wanna walk~ they can't move~ i wan it toooooo BADLY~ =(
he looked back and realise i din go~ i bet i never once sulked this badly in my whole life~ he came back and look at me~
"aiyoh......really wan ah?"
he went back to try the guitar again~ think and think~ then
"ok la~ buy la"
i was like!~ YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
that guitar felt so damn right!~so he added a electric guitar bag and he practically emptied his whole wallet to pay~
i couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the day~ smiling like an idiot all the way~hehehehe!~
and he looked at me with the "worth it la" sort of smile~
he took the guitar back to his home to scrub and clean up and polish and fix the missing screws~ next day when he pass me it~ it was SParklING~and looks new!~
hahaha~
and so~ we went suffering from poverty, living on his savings~ which we earlier on intended not to touch ~ till next week when my allowance form parents came~ ah~ financial aid!~

I know...~ I'm lucky. =)
i always knew it~ but I never knew i was THIS lucky. =)


CONCLUSION: IT WAS THE HORMONES!!!! arghx!~ jiemin!!! I HATE PMS!!!~

thankz jac and mom~ the comments left was very "jiayou"ish~ =)

It had been a LLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGG~

HARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

JOB SEARRRRRRRRCH~


But guess wat? I found a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yipee!!!!!~
Camp faciliator!~ hohoho!~ so happy!!!!!
although must wait till july then can get pay~
but nevermind!~
hohoho!~ sobx~ go gan dong to get this job~

ah~ good man~ just nice for my jian fei ji hua~
and work out to be stronger to conquer mount hall 10 !!!!!!~ so that i can fly up nthe stairs everyday~
with my whole chunk of "textbooks" and textbooks.

I just saw my fren's (classmate) my space~ Your idol: anyone who does what he loves for a living and rock hard at it.~

isn't that how we are supposed to live?
my fren is doing it~ he has his dreams, big and wild ones and he is totally on track~ having set up a design company of his own and an established brand of his own at the age of 23. Attending international design meetings nand events by invitation~ he had gone to tokyo and new york by invitation to meet the designers all over the world and after knowing him better~ it is the attitude that led him there. He wants it~he plans, and work determinedly~ and make sure he gets there~ he really does wat he wants ~ not sidetracking for more moneyb etc~ clapx~ inspiring young man~ I should be like that~ you should be likenthat. we should be like that.

What do i want out of this holiday?

1) WAKE UP EARLY and sleep before 2, then i will have more time~ instead ot that haphazard sleeping pattern which caused me to unknowingly lose time.

2) CAMP CAMP CAMP~ touch lives again~ and be touched again~ i love this job man..~=)
(will update after my first camp~ 21-23may~)

3) Charity, why don't i dO~ suMtHinG~?!~ yea~ i shall do something~

4) GENTING!!!! BEAUTIES!~ GENTING PLEASE...~ =) it was damn fun and i want it again!~ >o<

5) family tour!!!!~

6) guitar~

after all~ it all boils down to planning~ without planning~ you get a warobe bursting with clothes which can last you a year. without planning, you sleep till bro come back from sch and mum come back from nightshift work. without planning, ur bank account goes on a great jump down the diving board andn you got no money to buy things you like. Without planning you feel like a pile of shit and the holiday felt like a dream too~leaving no impression or memory~ wasted. soooo.........LET'S PLAN!!!!!!!!~ =D


How i gonna spend the rest of my may:
- CAMPS~
- Clear up and split up room for bro to shift in
- meet up with the pig and frens
- do props for ahscds performance~
- run and swim and run and swim!~
- organise sentosa outing
-finish the design for the tee design competition

JUNE JUNE JUNE JUNE....

- Tution~
- CAMPS~
- Work out for something for charity
- run swim run swim~

to be continued~

July shall be the time for harvest!~ camp till mid july then go tour!!!~ hoho!~ but again~ lidat then needa plan tour also~ WOW WOW WOW!!!~

my holi just turned from the most disguisting one to the most happening one!!!~ HEHEHEHEH!~=)

-

Talking to the beauties nowadays.
about views on relationship~ take one relationship.
I said i think that they are too idealistic, expecting too much from the partner.

then i come to realise, i hardly expect from him.
I had come to this stage, whereby i no longer dare to expect in him.
I find this less hurting, so that i can be more contented, more easily contented.
But is this right?
hao duo luo....


HE doesn't really give.
and when i tell him these problems, he takes a defensive stand. he thinks i am getting too emotional.
all these about more respect, more concern, more think-for-me. more sacrifice-for me.

I dunno~ think i am getting too emotional too~ menses you see.
or am i not?
am i changing myself to make myself feel happy in watever shit get in?
do i deserve more?
or is this truly enough?
Everytime i run from these questions~ i continue smiling~
continue my life as his girlfriend.

People around me are worried that i may get bullied by him, i dunno why, they shdn noe much, how did they come to this conclusion?
I do not grumble to othes abotu him. i do not tell them i feel mistreated or watsoever~
I always seem so happily in love.
Sometimes, i feel that i am so pathetic, i blind myself~ dream out my own excuses and all~ and tell myself~ ok, now justified!~ so..... SMILE!~

Issit the hormones taking over now?

I hope so.

i am too lazy to change~ i am not afraid, this i noe.

but i am pathetic, this i noe......

Sudden craving for macdonalds fries~ ah...~

I am stuffed with green bean soup which i cooked a whole pot of it today~ family size~ heez~

stayed at home whole day~ i am so broke but i dun feel it. So it's quite ok~ mummy wil be giving me money for this month soon~ since it's the beginning of month le~ if i get a job and start job this month then i can return the money to her when my pay comes~ hope so bah~

jiemin got a job le!!!~ wealth management~ arghx~ needa find mine too~ we all wanna be rich girls after all~ haha~

breakfast at cafe~ gossiping catching up~ laming~ bursting the cafe with our unique laughter (esp jm's...tat's one thing tat never changes isn't it? haha)
then chu went for lesson and we two went for shopping spree!~ shuang dao~ hehe~
Bought a pair of earrings i had been looking for for sooooo long~ roses earrings~ vintage feel~ femine~ fits me~ hohoho~ watever~ hmm~ and a old style dress~ and a cheongsum top~ hha~ jm bought the same one~ we imagined it style~ and us with shades~ and jeans three quats~ in the end~ it looked rather...TRADITIONAL. haha~ shd we iron on something or watever to make it look more untraditionally~ haha~ suan le~ nice anyway~ haha. maybe we imagined too much~
had steamboat with fam at home~ ah~ nice day isn't it~

That was yest. And today is sooo homely~ Yea~ breakfast/lunch , then cooked green bean soup~ read the book a little more~ DOTAAAAAAA~ nice game today~ finally sort of know how to use panda~ powerful!~ hohoho!~ but still noob~ still AI-ing~ i may be up to it to play in battlenet but i dun like~ dun feel like~ esp when you cannot pause game~ haha~ i always needa go to pee when i dota~ or go and grab some snackx~ haha~ maybe one day can try bah~ but dun feel lke it yet~ still training!!!

anyone got job lobang? i dun want boring jobs like data entry~ admin i think still ok~ but data entry is like~ omg omg omg i must invent a machine to do this~ how can anyone with an active brain with braincells do such job? haiz~

I want a job~ i want money~ i wanna go out and da chi da he!!!~ i wanna go shopping~ doll up and look stylish~ i wanna go excercise~ i wanna play sports~ i wanna go ABROAD AND PLAY!!! I wanna go enjoy all the good food within my 20m radius~ never to give any a miss due to empty wallet or tight budget~ that is so ridiculous! i LOVE FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna catch up with frens~ i wanna do so many so many stuffs~ but all that i am doing now is blogging abou tthem~ haha~ GAMBATTEH!!!

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth. While you may not be a total hippie... You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around. You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure. However, you do put some thought behind all your actions. Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

is that true? hmm~ haha fun~