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Took this on saturday on the way to IFFAH's gig at esplanade.
Holga B&W HP005, by MATTINA ZHENG


COME．ＢＡＣＫ．TO．ＭＥ


就坐在这边 我不抽烟我不喝酒 有种贪念 我想要你回来。 就坐在这边 弹着GUITAR为你留言 写一首歌 我想要你回来。

世界太乱 我不够勇敢 需要你在我的身边 头发很乱我不管 走在街上 携往能够一步一步woah~地走到你的身边。
yeah~yeah...~yeah~ yeah~yeah...~yeah~

CHORUS Why don't my baby just Come back to me~ 要你回来。 坏习惯我会慢慢地改 只要你不离开。 戒烟戒酒做一个好女孩。 我会 好好听话做你的好太太。

This song was written quite some time ago, at least 2 years ago.
I watched some film which i don't remember which and was imagining myself as a bad girl whose lover just ditched her.
Personally i like this song very much among my composition, mainly because of the tune and the free style of guitar. Everything just falls in to tell the story and the mood quite ap-ly.
I'll be recording it in studio soon.

好难拿捏噢。。。

对人多好。

让人走进我的世界多少。
我又要走进别人的世界多少。

能让多少。
该期待多少。

累的时候该哭泣还是大笑。

有些东西该牢记还是忘掉。
有些人应该放开还是紧紧抓牢。

听到的话应该相信还是有所怀疑。

当眼睛所看到的，与心理所相信的不协调，该闭上眼睛，还是漠视那些信念。


活着怎么会有那么 GEI　ＺＵＡ　的感觉？
　

Clearing up the space

[Emptying my XD card and hence uploading a series of random photos.]

ART AND ARTIST

[LOVE LOVE LOVE this piece of art! It's my constant reminder to be a girl of character and not fear being so.]

Tent AND pIGS

[I have a idea, of celebrating my 21th Birthday. I'll hold a camp! I'll have plain bbq session of sweet potatos and corn and marshmallows and order pizzas and aunts and mum will prepare some other random food, and I'll celebrate with all my relatives and friends. After the party, all are free to stayover in the two tents which I will set up.

In fact I think it will be a very romantic way of spending anniversary with my boyfriend. Imagine reaching there at late afternoon, throwing a mat out on the grass, under the shade of a tree. There's an icebox, wine glasses and wine. fruits and cheesecake as well. And of course a radio. We'll just slack there will a book or magazine and the radio on, let the music or dj's voice merge with the sound of waves and the whistling of wind and the laughter of kids playing in the sea. Watch the sun set and the sky turns orangy and the stars fade into the sky. hear the birds retire into their nests. Tired chuckles of kids. And I'll be playig the guitar while he's lazing on the mat which is cushioned by the grass.

Then we'll shift over to the jetty to fish! set up the tent and dump the stuffs inside. But there is a flaw in my this dream anniversary, that is.... How do I slot in dinner?! hmm... ]

I BREWERK-ED AGAIN

[It was a byebye-nel session. Ended up at brewerks. Yes. no doubt I am a alcoholic girl. I just love love love the way alcohol sips into your body and warm it up so seamlessly. Then it eases your muscles and the tension in you. And it keeps swirling, makes me feel like a baby in a cradle. Or a least I think that is how they feel, i mean the babies in the cradles. ]

THE BIG BROWN SPECTS

[Neh's spects, love it! i wanted to get one like this from a online korea fashion shop! so when I saw it, I was like~ oh man!~ that's the one! lol. But I'll like a red one instead. ]

TODAY I SLAYED THE 9.6KG WATERMELON

I insisted on getting this watermelon caus eit is so damn huge!~ look at it's sixe as compared to the chopper!!! I so totally regretted it when I was struggling to hold it well as I make my way to find papa at carpark. Damn heavy and the plastic bag was tearing. But It was all worth it when I gorge my face into it~ hohoho!~

MY FIRST CHEMISTRY TUTION

I survived 2 hrs plus of CHEMISTRY TUTION!!!!

God I thought i will just try to teach more physics and close my eyes a little on chemistry. But first thing Ran told me when i reached was " Can you just go through chemistry with me today cause I got common test next week." And so, I smiled and said " Sure~" so assuring, wish i had a tutor like that. It was raining cold sweat inside of me...

In the end, I realise that it is really something that is quite deep rooted in me, Miss Chan's Chemistry teachings!
I was quite well-equipted such that I was able to teach quite well, 2hours of electrolysis, Redox, salt and bases, reaction rate, graphs..~ I AM GOOD! =)


A series of events happened after i knocked off at sembawang, though phone. And so, suddenly I realise I now have nothing to do. Suddenly don't have to go back to school or go airport to fetch someone or go recce. Suddenly not enaged at all. So I headed home, hungry and lost.

Reached home to find the same pack of Nasi Lemak from bedok south waiting for me patiently on the dining table, like a patient old grandfather who loves me so blindly. I think love from old grandparents are so unique and warm and overwhelming. Perhaps because their brains are too aged such that it gets too tiring to think. They don't think much, they just keep loving and keep giving. How good if we can all start loving like a old person before we turn old and wrinkled.~

Father always buy the nasi lemak from bedok south market for me on every sundays ever since I exclaimed that I LOVE to eat it and self-declared that it is the BEST nasi lemak in the world, which is very unreliable cause i seem to have unique taste buds.

Even if he called and i said no. Even if he called and no one answered the phone. Even if he knows that there's a 95% chance that I am not at home. He'll still buy it.

He buys it EVERY SUNDAY. Since I was in JC, and that means it had been 4yrears.
I once asked him, why he still buys it. And he said " Just in case you get hungry or wanna eat."

Because he knows I love it.
Because he knows I'll exclaim with joy waking up to it.
All these he din't say, but i know it too well.

I use to eat a pack of nasi lemak from bedok south on Sunday mornings. I'll wake up to a pack of this nasi lemak and make myself a cup of coffee. Satisfied, I'll laze around and feel the world spin and imagine the clicking shopping heels on orchard's floor till mid afternoon. Maybe I was being lazy. And maybe I like to feel the world spinning with everyone throwing stuffs into history of it, be it " lucy bought a tee at bugis" or "kweekuan played pool with his buddies". All these go into the bag of history of Earth. And I will spend the time by doing nothing, throwing nothing in. Well, I think I was lazy.

And so I ate the nasi lemak at 5pm plus.

I did exclaim in joy when I saw it.
And yes I made myself a cup of coffee to go with it at such a weird hour to have coffee.


Somethings just don't change. You just keep loving it.
And some people just don't change. They just keep loving you.

LUST . CAUTION

OMG~
i speed watched lust caution uncut!
Now I understand why it is so good, it's because of Tony's great acting! His eyes acts so well when they are having sex, omg~ god-like character design.
And his body, his nerves~ every detail of tension and his passion is taken care of.

OMG~
ps. this is really not a film to be watched with opp gender

Olivia Ong

SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH- Olivia Ong

"Sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides"

How insensative - Olivia Ong


How insensitive
I must have seemed
When he told me that he loved me
How unmoved and cold
I must have seemed
When he told me so sincerely
Why he must have asked
Did I just turn and stare in icy silence
What was I to do?
What can you do?
When a love affair is over?

Now he's gone away
And I'm alone
With a memory of his last look
Vague and drawn and sad
I see it still
All the heartbreak in his last look
How he must have asked,
Did I just turn and stare in icy silence
What was I to do?
What can one do
When a love affair is over?


23 this year, in Japan.
Olivia Ong.

A girl living her dream.
Left Singapore at 17 for Japan, for her dream.

Going for At17's concert coming friday.
2girls living their dreams as well.

I like these girls, they are so alive.


Went to Sam's place yesterday night for steamboat and was sipping some red wine after that, and left at about 12 for the last bus. She sure has a beautiful house. Big, spacious, beautiful.
I don't recall talking to her back in my JC days. But it's amazing how when I talk to anyone recently, it discloses another sad stories of them. how come everyone seems to have experienced something sad recently? or is it really recently?


Have everyone been secretly depressed and sad behind my back? Do people tear while I blink?

I hope not.

Please guys, be happy. =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2008!!!

First day of Chinese new year

Bro with my zebra hat and my shades


Our first visitors. Aunt posing

First home visit, First Aunt's place. Waiting for daddy.

Setting off to 2nd location

Sweeeeeetttttt!~ =)

Me and Angel, shampoo advertisement moment.





SECOND DAY OF CNY 08~

康勇说：“EH! 我拍你拍我拍你！”



SUPER MAN MOMENT!!~





=)

RANDOM

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MY NEW SLIPPERS [$12.90]


MY NEW DRESS/TOP [$8]

Went to interchange with mum and bro and bro'd gf (vivian).

Supposed to shop for nian huo but well, i got the slippers while mum was trying on some clothes, and i grabbed the top/dress when i passed by the shop. $8 for such qlt, omg!!!! cai shen ye lai le !!!!

OH! i got the tution job! the prev indian girl whom i relived tutored her for one month. stress sial~ pure phy and pure chem. Chem is bad. I needa re read them~ but the idea of filling up my saturday afternoon is good. so i will cash in 50bucks per week.

i can just so tell you it will all go to watching movies and eating gd stuffs. you know my life now is quite routine. School, photos, experiemental photos, a lot of darkroom, maybe after school a small grp of us will hop onto my "grandpa's " car and we will all go somewhere to eat~ then catch a movie~ bored film students.

I love watching movies. Actually i really love it more when i watch it alone. If i watch with people, i prefer the outer most seat. but anyway, watching movies with people provides us a with a amain programme so that we can all meet up and chill after that. So, i don't hate it, it's a good activity.

Had been eating at quite a few good places recently, I went to a resturant in boonkeng some time ago, the chicken rice resturant, Wen Dong Ji. It was good. The 酥皮豆腐was ownage~! yum yum, but thought it lacks some good sauce to go with it. Can almost imagine nelson eating it and giving comment. Dunno why, guess it is SOOOOO him, very HIM kinda food. haha. And chicken rice is also very him. Hao bah~ let's go there for your farewell dinner wu gui! =D Oh! And a ice cream place!!! oh gosh, i dun really know where it is, hmm~ but anyway~ it serves very good ice cream! the chocolate ice cream is DAMN GOOD!!!! can bite some brownie here there and is not too sweet. And got chio bus~ so it's gd bonus to guys. AND GOT A SUPER OU XIANG JU-ish guy lah!~ and some real good looking jc guys. Well, so i guess its good for boys-bio-ers like yux!~ you SHOULD go there. I will ask them how to get there and we WILL get there.

GOD, tell me why i love food so much! And if you want to make me someone who loves food, can you shun bian make me someone who loves to exercise?! :'(

Mom, i miss the chicken chop noodles!!!! :'(

Jac, I wan go 1001!!!!

Had been developing this weird new habit. When I walk home these days, real late like 11pm plus, i always have this craving for coffee. So I'll ta bao one packet and sip while i walk home. So relaxing. love to walk at night.

You know the feeling when I stroll down the empty chilled street?

like the whole world is just a stage~ a set for a film. And everyone knocked off. Just leaving some gaffer and crew hanging out.