Karene

My leg aches from the sunday run.

Here's my new story for my 5min short film.

Karene is mugging overnight again.
She is down with fever. She finished her water, hence, ate her pills with coffee instead. Coffee ran out as well. She grabs a can of coke from her fridge and starts gulping. She felt a sharp pain within her and hence made her way to the toilet.
However, as she opens the door, she enters a garden!
She felt no pain and she is now in a beautiful red dress, all freshened up. She saw two kids waiting for her, with a red balloon linked to an empty coke can and a flower. Both items had the note " For Serene " written on it. They handed both items to her and she enters her world of eutopia where everything is perfect. She is well-loved by everyone she sees and suddenly it is all about enjoying life.
She hears beeping sound, getting louder and louder.
people starts disappearing and as the camera close up to her eyes, it dissolves through white and you see a blurred vision of a doctor. you see her on bed in a hospital with the heartbeat machine going beep, beep.
She looks around. She smiles.


Sometimes i really hope this can happen to me.
you know, at times when you feel so bloody stressed up by fucked up people who keeps pissing you off and making you feel worthless?
you keep pushing yourself, pushing and pushing, cause you have to meet deadlines. cause you have to do a good job. cause you have to please your professors and get good grades. At one point, you hope you can just collapse. hope you wake up in the hospital saying you are unfit for all these stress and you should quit school. Then you quit school and lead a simple life, earning less. You may say " wah, you don't have to wait for that. you can just quit school if you want right now!"
Yes....and No.
Uni means degree, means incresing the probability of making good money, means cleverer, means more superior, more high-class.
This is too tempting a package.
You can't just give it up like this. not with a strongly programmed weak mind like mine.
End of the day, it may not worth all this shit. But at least you took the "safe route".
All my life I am taking the safe route. I haven't start living. I am studying, which will get me "somewhere".

Sometimes i wonder if life is really such a highly skill and knowledge intensive industry.
I wonder if life is really so taxing.
Or can it, like what is belived in a small naive and inconfident part of my brain and heart, be simple?

Film is like a snapping shark. Snapping furiously behind me. If i stop running, I will be flat dead. I don't have time to think. Of maybe I have. But I don't have time to really decide for myself what i should feel towards the way I am leading my life and evaluate myself thoroughly. I am chased by deadlines and commitments. I can't hide. They WILL track me down faster then I can imagine. Well I tried a little.


Actually i think right now the most important thing and of upmost priority is to adjust my mindset and attitude so that I can enjoy this part of my life, until this whole shit is over and I get to breath clean and slow, then I can go through all the decision stuffs.

KARENE!!!! TAKE ME ALONG!!!!!